They lived
It was us who gave life to them
We started to love them
Unconditionally.
They knew
They would look like their Daddy
And he would teach them
How to be good.
They grew
But it was too soon
I couldn't protect them
My little ones.
Ectopic
Is what they called you
But you're my angels
One day I'll meet.
I know
You'll look just like your Daddy
God takes good care of you
As I never could.
We know
We will never forget you
You were our babies
Taken too soon.
I created this blog to share my feelings of frustration & disappointment in my fertility journey. However, after a double ectopic pregnancy in November 2009 it has become about my ability to pick myself up & carry on with life.
About Me
- Mrs W
- I got married to the lovely Mr W in December 2007 & we started trying for our baby in March 2008. In July 2009 I was diagnosed with PCOS & November 2009 saw the precious babies we had longed for being a double ectopic pregnancy. I am someone who finds it hard to deal with 'failure' & am struggling to comprehend that my body is refusing to do what should be natural & carry the child we both long for ...
Blog Archive
My TTC Journey
- 12/2007 Married Mr W
- 3/2008 Came off the pill
- 12/2008 See a counsellor after a miserable Christmas
- 1/2009 Realise I've wasted 1st year of marriage. Decide to try & get act together
- 3/2009 It's been a year :(
- 7/2009 21 day bloods - High chance of PCOS
- 8/2009 Scan confirms PCOS
- 9/2009 GP prescribes clomid - woo hoo!
- 10/2009 AF goes AWOL so start clomid
- 11/2009 AF returns. First cycle taking clomid on right days
- 11/2009 BFP!!
- 11/2009 Precious babies are ectopic
- 12/2009 My 29th birthday
My Ectopic Campaign
I want to start a campaign to make women more aware of the dangers of ectopic pregnancies. I had double bi-lateral ectopic pregnancies and didn't go to the doctor until my shoulders started to hurt by which time they had already ruptured. We need to make women more aware of the symptoms as mine were textbook. We also need to prepare leaflets to provide emotional support and contact details for support sites available for every woman when they are discharged from hospital and not leave it up to them to search for help on Google. Women like me need advice and hope from women who have lived through this tragedy and gone on to have successful pregnancies. We need hope and currently there is not enough being done.
Support Sites
Pregnancy Loss
I found the period immediately after the loss of my two babies a time for me to write a lot of heart-wrenching poetry to describe my feelings. Do you have poems of a similar nature? Would you be willing to share them (anonymously if you wish) if I were to publish a book of shared thoughts & feelings on pregnancy loss? I would donate the money raised to pregnancy loss support groups. Please get in touch if this is you. You can leave me a message here and I will respond with my contact details. I look forward to hearing from you.
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